Creative urges, an Etsy shop, and some Tarot... I could say more, but... why?

A random non-piece of a piece

Why this image? I dunno. Creative urges and shit or something…

My mind bombards me with so many thoughts throughout the day, and I want to write about it all. But life gets in the way, and I often have to put those thoughts on the backburner and come back to them at a later time or day.

Lately, that has not felt like a huge problem because these thoughts keep chomping at the bit to be expressed, and when I have the time and energy to sit and write, there is one that is at the forefront of my mind… and that’s the one that ends up getting written about.

Today, however… I have found myself in an odd space where I have the time, energy, and desire to write, but none of the many, many thoughts that keep circling my brain off and on have come forth to be written about.

What. The. Hell.

I am feeling quite annoyed with this.

Generally, if there is nothing to coming to the forefront to be written about, I shrug my shoulders and find that there is something else that my energy actually wants to do instead- and that it’s my mind that is feeling like I «should» take advantage of the available time to write. So I do the something else that my energy truly wants to do.

But right now?!

Damnit. My energy feels pulled to express something in writing.

I just can’t seem to touch upon what, exactly, it wants to write about.

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OH.

I just had a light bulb moment.

Maybe I can’t think of what wants to be written because what I am feeling is not necessarily a writing urge, but one of creation…

I have been feeling pulled lately by a desire to get back into my more visually-artistic side.

I even have been paying for an Adobe Illustrator subscription since November… even though I’ve barely used it much at all. I keep thinking that I will.

Because there is an urge there.

I have created a few oracle decks in the past, and had a few ideas still bumping around in my mind… other decks I wanted to create… and they keep calling to me at times.

It hasn’t been the time to revisit that sort of creativity yet… but I think that time is coming.

And I think that’s what is happening now.

So I think I may jump over to Illustrator and see what fun stuff may take shape…

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But I did NOT create this in Iillustrator though… the images in this post are me having fun with ai.

This feels a bit like a random non-piece piece 😅 and a part of me wants to just delete the whole thing because what’s the point of sharing it?!

But it’s what’s happening so why not just let it be what it is… let it make its way to whomever it might.

Anyhoo.

In case you are interested and wondering, I created two oracle decks which I did have physically printed, and then three digital, downloadable oracle decks. Two of the three digital decks are currently available for purchase in my Etsy shop.

Yep. I have one of those. I tried to create a Tarot/Spiritual business for a few years, and the Etsy shop was the start of it. I wanted to make that business work so badly, but somehow, I was just never able to. I never broke through… never really got seen… no matter how hard I tried. I still haven’t given up on the whole idea, but had to step back and let go of it, at least for a while.

I left the digital downloads available in my shop because why not? They already exist and it is no effort to leave them there. I also have a few Thoth Tarot Cheat Sheets there. People stumble upon my shop and purchase something every once in a while. It’s always fun to get the random “cah-ching” purchase notification and to be reminded that my Etsy shop does in fact still exist 😅 Ohhh you do still live! Woohoo!

Another thing I’m feeling called to is potentially getting back into sharing tarot readings. I’ve thought about starting a separate section for that here… sharing collective and/or pick-a-card readings… maybe my own insights on the cards… even some channeled sigils that I create… LOL… I actually even did a whole thing with a channeled sigil back in December… but never turned it into a post or anything… yeah… these thoughts have been bumping around in my brain for a while lol…

It just hasn’t yet been the time to bring it down from the ethereal mental sphere, give it action, and condense it into something real and tangible. That’s a whole lot of words to say, “It hasn’t been the time to make it happen yet.” But really, why use less words when I can use more… 😬🤪😁 lol… losing my already tenuous train of thought here… what was I saying?! Oh yeah…

So yeah, I keep flirting with the idea but not actually doing it yet. But maybe soon.

Cuz this different creative urge… oh yeah, it’s feeling pretty strong.

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Well, I suppose this is a short one today.

👉 If you WOULD be interested in seeing tarot readings- they would be shadow work focused… I don’t do fortune telling… let me know. It might help to get that action going if I get a response to this idea.

In the meantime… have you checked out my latest writings? The last one was a doozy. It’s long, but worth the read, if I do say so myself. 👇

That image makes me laugh so much. I created it with ai, and it was not what I’d had in mind… but god, wasn’t it just absolutely perfect for the piece!!

Okies.

I suppose that’s that for right now.

Ima go play around on Illustrator and see what happens 😁

Bye for now

(I lied. One more thing to say… as I wrapped this up, I decided I wanted a few abstract-ish images to accompany this post, so I created some using Substack’s ai image generator. Then my mind promptly started feeling worried that people might start judging me for talking about wanting to use Adobe Illustrator and then in the same post go and use ai images. «Shouldn’t I be utilizing my own artistic abilities to create something in Illustrator rather than using ai for this piece????? Oh god, people are going to hate and criticize me for this!!!»

Well, I thought I’d go create something and use that, then.

So I did not post this and went to see about creating what I wanted myself in Illustrator. But that is not a quick, little thing… not for me anyway… and nothing got created. And this piece did not get posted. And I felt so unsatisfied.

All for what? To appease the supposed potential judgy people in my head?! Pfft. That’s silly. So this is going out with ai art and all. Cuz I can create my own images, but I also very much enjoy using ai to create as well. And if anyone doesn’t like that then ohthefuckwell. And honestly, I say more as a reminder to myself than to anyone else haha.

Ok. This time it’s done for real. Peace out y’all.)