On the Generator response

Heretical thoughts of a 5th line Generator

The very first thing that you get explained to you when you are new to Human Design is about Strategy & Authority (S&A for short) - and for good reason.

We all have an inner guidance system within us. It is through learning to understand the language with which this guidance communicates with us, that we are able to begin to let go of trying to be what we are not and embrace who we truly are. It is also the very foundation of creating a life that feels good to live.

Strategy & Authority is Human Design’s way of attempting to help us get in touch with our own inner guidance system. I won’t go into the hows and the whats of it… if you are interested in learning about all that, there is PLENTY of that information out there on web to be found. I will add before moving on though… Human Design teaches that what truly matters is learning how to make decisions correctly as yourself- which means learning how to follow your Strategy & Authority.

Now, I have seen people take issue with the whole concept of S&A because Ra did not receive it from The Voice; he used his strategic mind and outer authority to come up with a system to try to give people something practical they could use to transform their lives. I have also seen those people criticize him because they say he did this for its marketability, but I personally don’t know that I really see it as such. I mean, sure, maybe that could have had some part in it, but in listening to Ra speak about it, the feeling I get is that he was genuinely sharing his outer authority through this concept.

Of course, as is true in life for us all, not everyone aligns with how he sees things, and in true 5th line fashion, he gets “burned at the stake.” It is what it is. He was definitely an interesting… “colorful" character, and I can see how many people can get rubbed the wrong way by him.

Personally, I get him. Even when I don’t agree with his views- and lord, didn’t he have some deeply pessimistic, nihilistic views… really “black colored glasses” lol… but even when I don’t agree with his views- or when he goes off on an angry tirade about how awful humans and the world all are blah blah blah, and all I can do is roll my eyes and hope that he will quit complaining and get back to the mechanics soon 🙄🤣…

Even then, there is this understanding in me of him. I suppose that’s my 5th line resonating with and seeing him.

But I digress…

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So, on the one side, we have those that are rejecting Strategy & Authority… and then on the other side, we have those for whom it is like gospel.

Unfortunately, I have experienced a lot of condescension around the subject from those who do give importance to S&A. Too many people seem so quick to judge anyone for any question they ask, often being dismissive, and sometimes quite rude and just plain mean (in my opinion, anyway). When I mentioned that I was noticing that I was not really getting the sacral uh-huhs and nuh-uhs to this one HD reader, I swear she almost seemed to physically recoil, and spent the rest of our conversation visibly annoyed with me, trying to explain to me how I was wrong and what I was supposed to be experiencing because I am a Generator.

***Insert ginormous eyeroll here please 🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄🙄***

And I have observed a lot of this.

I see so many people who are other types (you know, NOT Generators) … especially Projectors… trying to tell us Generators what our sacral response is “supposed” to be like. That has really been rubbing me the wrong way lately.

And ok, ok, yeah, yeah, I get it. Projectors are here to guide and teach, and it can truly be genuine and helpful… there is a Projector I came across who has an incredible way of explaining the mechanics of Human Design. She put out a video explaining the sacral response, and I was totally ready to be deeply annoyed when watching it! 🤭 But she actually did an amazing job of explaining it in a way that I think would be very accessible and helpful for any Generator- whether new to the knowledge and their design, OR years into their experiment.

However, that has not been the norm in my experience so far.

Being attuned to my own sacral in my own real-life lived experiment/experience, I can tell you that it does NOT always work the way everyone likes to say it does. Mine definitely does not. Because………

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Not. All. Generators. Are. The. Same. (Obviously, the same goes for all other types too!!)

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There is an entire chart, full of nuances that are different for everyone. EVERYONE.

So, are there commonalities? Yes. Can we give some generalities? Yes, for sure.

But I feel like too many people are getting stuck on the generalities at the expense of the nuances.

Which!

… is also another thing that I feel like the people who reject S&A are seeing- that hyper-focus on the generalities. And the extreme condescension. And it turns them off completely because their lived experiences are seeming to get invalidated. In the end, it IS all about the lived experience. We are not meant to stuff ourselves into the generalities. They are just there to be helpful signposts… not law. Yes, yes. We must decondition to get to our truths, for sure. But even THAT has its nuances. Dismissing people’s experiences as being stuck in conditioning is just… Ugh 😒

Anyway, let’s keep on moving along here…

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One of the things that stood out to me was where it seems that the whole Generator sounds thing came from…

I don’t remember exactly where I saw this, and I don’t remember too many specific details, so this is more just the memory and understanding that stayed with me. And I should probably add the disclaimer that I am not saying this (what I am about to share) is 100% fact…

It was my understanding from what I read that Ra developed his understanding of the sacral sounds and their role in the Generator response through the experience of one particular Generator he worked with. Her response operated through the uh-huhs and the nuh-uhs. AND, of course, I’m sure that many other Generators resonated with this, which then makes sense that it would be seen to be just how the response works.

WELL.

Let me tell you.

My sacral does not really do these response sounds. Not in any way that can be systematically used to figure out if I have a yes or a no response.

Oh. My sacral makes TONNNNNNNNNS of sounds. Oh jeez. My husband laughs at me so hard!! If I feel safe and comfortable enough, a cacophony of grunts, groans, gasps, beeps, meows, harrumphs, mehs, blehs, ughs, hmms, high pitched whines… and whatever other miscellaneous sounds… find themselves spontaneously echoing out of me at any given moment.

But if I’m trying to make a decision… trying to figure out if I have a yes or a no response… there are none of those “classic” sounds arising spontaneously to answer.

And it’s not about having been conditioned away from them either- as some have condescendingly suggested, dismissing my differing experience.

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I do get where they are coming from though.

In his classes and lectures, Ra always made it a point to stress that S&A was the only thing that mattered… even when he was going deep into the substructure of design, he would bring it back to S&A, saying that none of the substructure really mattered without S&A. And I do see and get that.

……………… buttttt I kind of lost my train of thought on that one lol

Hmmmm… let’s move on from that…

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Funny thing. I started writing here thinking I was going to specifically speak to MY Generator response lol. It always amuses me to see the flow of my expression once I just let it loose.

I will still write a post (next one, I’m assuming) where I speak specifically about my experiment and experience with my sacral response. I have LOTS to share on that.

But as I wrap this up, I’m realizing that everything I shared here has been sort of “stuck in my craw,” as they say. I take it all in. I have so much that I observe that I just… don’t share. It stays inside of me… inside of my mind… banging round and round in my head… and I guess it just needed to come out- even though there is a part of me that gets scared of hitting that “post” button. Because of these “heretical,” 5th line thoughts coupled with my completely open Solar Plexus. Oof… so much of what I think does not get said because of that pesky distaste for and avoidance of confrontation/making people upset with me.

Yeah. Too much stays locked away inside of me.

Oh well. Ima let it out now. (With the intention that whoever needs to receive these words find them… and that all the heretic burners stay away 😅)

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K. I think that’s enough for this post. Stay tuned for the next part, where I will share about my own sacral response.

Bye for now…